This is the edited version of the Mending the Heart for Ascension Channeling
As we sit with you in this sacred space of honoring the heart we acknowledge that the intention is to mend the break between you as your personality self, as your ego consciousness and your highest self aspect, your highest self understanding of who you are. We honor this intention for mending and we honor your hearts. We honor that your hearts have the unique job description of being the bridge between your spiritual understanding and your physical experience. Your heart is the place where you can choose to feel the pains of the world, including your own pain, and internalize that and make that your focus in which case you experience more of the same. Or, you have the choice to use your heart as the beacon, as the magnet for higher awareness meaning expanded awareness, greater awareness of who you are. And so, we honor your heart because it truly holds both job descriptions, neither one is right or wrong they simply are your experience of being a human being; of being a spirit being that has chosen to inhabit a physical body at this time.
And we honor each of you because we see each of you, no exception, as a trailblazer of encompassing more of that universal love and light into your own personal heart space, your own personal being, to reflect that out into the world. For at this time on the planet there are massive changes taking place in terms of shifting your awareness from your need to struggle for your right to survive into the experience of thriving; into the experience of knowing that it is your right to survive and moving beyond that into a state of thriving. This means abundance not only in your finances, but also in your relationship to everything in your life- other people, your work, and to your self.
So, again, we honor you for the place that you have brought your self to in order to step into this new vibration of greater awareness. You may have forgotten your connection to your light. You may have believed that the light of spirit is not nearly big enough to hold the distortion or forgetfulness or the places where you separate your self through neglecting, through rejecting, So we invite you to come back to this remembering that your light is big enough to hold your forgetting, to hold your acting out, to hold your distortions, to hold the places in which you give your power and your self away to somebody's distortions, to the world around you and its distortions, to the undercurrent of fear that seems to find its way into each of your lives in different ways.
We wish to remind you that you are big enough to hold what is coming at you, but you cannot do it from the place that believes that you are broken and it is essential that you forgive yourself for believing that there was something wrong with you to begin with. For some of you this experience of there being something missing or something wrong is only one little piece of your reality but you give it so much of your attention. And, it is of course, by focusing upon this perspective in which you believe that there is something missing or wrong that you create experiences that reflect that back to you.
So from our perspective we see that holding forgiveness for yourself for believing that there was any reason to take yourself out of the universal love current to begin with allows you to return there- simply through the compassion that you feel for this forgetting. Breathe into your sacred heart center now. Let the breath begin to open up the gates. Allow us to come and be present with your sacred heart center. Allow our energetic hands to hold your sacred heart center, for we can see the part of you that forgot. And we can see where you hold yourself hostage in that forgetting. So we invite you to make the agreement to not hold yourself hostage anymore, to make the leap into your larger self. Hold this very forgetful, contracted place, not making it wrong or bad but simply holding it, allowing it to be seen, to be heard, to have its voice but not giving it the authority.
For as you have each grown in your self awareness of the patterns in which you have engaged over and over in this lifetime and lifetimes before, it is easy to come into a sort of power struggle with your distortions. And this is the way in which you stay in the lower consciousness and keep yourself from effortlessly and gracefully popping up into the heart space. We see that you pop up into the heart space and you enjoy it and feel so good and open and expanded, and all of a sudden you go back into the struggle, back into the place in which you believe that you must struggle to survive, to assert yourself, to be seen, to be heard, to be acknowledged, to be loved. And so in these times we would like to give you another boost to not focus upon the distortions in a way that takes you out of contact with your larger self. It is ok to see the forgetfulness, it is ok to experience where you separate, say no, reject. But now is the time to do your best to reach for the light, to pray. You send a prayer out and the universe hears you, dear one. And as long as you remain open to coming back into your heart, even it is just an idea of open-ness, the universe will show you how to come back into your heart again.
We invite you to keep bringing the vibration of forgiveness, the forgiveness of self for forgetting who you are. For getting wrapped up the back and forth battles within yourself and with others so much so that you allow the battles to distract you from who you really are. If you wish to stay in the power consciousness that is your choice, but know that is what you are choosing every time you go into battle- every time you battle yourself with self-hatred, with self-neglect, with those inner conflicts that you are beginning to reveal. It is the splits inside of you where one part of you says one thing and one part of you says another, one of part of you wants one thing and another part wants something else. We have so much compassion for this conflict inside of you because we see that is serving you to make a choice but you don’t always see the choice. You believe it is serving you to focus upon the conflict to try to figure it out. And we say that it serves you much better to simply realize that the inner conflict is a battle that stems from your need to know that it is your birthright to be an empowered individual that has choice- choice as to which vibration you hang out in most often.
As soon as you recognize that you have choice you have opened the gateway between your third chakra and your heart. As soon as you realize that you don’t have to stay in that battle with yourself, another, a job, a situation, and you decide to bring in a higher consciousness by popping up into the heart space you get to expand, you get to go beyond the battle, the conflict. You don’t need to stay in the conflict in order to sort it out, in fact, the only way to transcend the conflict is to pop out of it. To literally, if you need to, put a piece of paper on the ground that says ‘Conflict’ and another that says ‘The Heart’ and watch yourself as you step out of one and into another. Practice this if you need to, if only for that anchoring experience of action of truly giving yourself the agency for change, taking yourself out of the turmoil and spin cycle that many of you do so well. As soon as you recognize that you have a choice you can pop out and go into the heart. The idea here is that you actually move from one place in your consciousness to another, so you can show your brain that you have a choice to move, to pop up into the heart. And then, when you are standing over in your heart space you can look back at the part of you that is still standing over on the conflict, the battle, and pour the vibration of forgiveness and compassion on that part of you and welcome it to join you in the softness of your heart.
Allow forgiveness of your self for forgetting that you have choice to be the bridge back into your heart. As it enters into your cells notice how the vibration of forgiveness creates space. Notice how it begins to melt those places within you that believe that if you hold yourself to a higher standard and don’t forgive/accept yourself you will somehow be safe, secure, loved. That is simply part of the illusion that you can somehow control the experience of disconnection from the universal love current that you feel in other people. Because the people around you are going to constantly be going in and out of the love current just as you do and if you are going to truly live from your heart space it is essential that you let go of the demand that you have on other people to show you how to be loved. Your parents couldn’t do it perfectly for you and they still can’t, and even if they could, you still have the programming from many lifetimes that says you will never get quite enough. So this is where you bring in your awareness that universal love, divine love, true love, is always present for you. And you need not hold yourself hostage by attempting to control the way other people love you. In this place you can surrender. You can free yourself from being a victim of other people’s disconnection from universal love because you can remind yourself that you are the one that gets to decide if you are truly in the experience of universal love or not. But please do not blame yourself for not doing this perfectly. Just use it as an opportunity to remember that you have choice. If you need to write the word ‘choice’ all over your home, then do it!
We are here to remind you that you do not need to control the people and things around you to get your need for love met so you can live in your heart. You can live in your heart now by forgiving yourself for believing that someone else held the key to your own heart. The world is waiting for you to take your rightful seat at the altar of love. The collective consciousness is asking for you to remember that it is your right and your purpose to take your seat at the altar of love. Because no matter what challenge you are faced with right now, love is stronger. No matter what lack you are experiencing, love is bigger. When you are in the softness of self-love you hold no one hostage for blaming, judging or criticizing you. You can simply observe others in their dance of forgetting because you seat yourself at the altar of love and you firmly ground yourself in those moments into the decision that you will not move from this altar love. And if you do take a step away, know that your seat is always waiting. Especially when things become tense and rough and tight and contracted and painful you sit yourself at the altar of love and you make the commitment to not move from the altar until you feel the universal current running through you again.
The truth is your light is your love and the capacity for you to hold love is bigger than you can imagine right now. What is going to get you into that place of expansion into the next level of ability to be a vessel of love is to step out of conflict and back into love; to forgive yourself for believing you needed conflict in order to know and feel yourself, to individuate, to be a unique human being. Forgive yourself for believing that conflict and struggle and battle defined you. Forgive yourself for believing the internal conflict could ever bring you into wholeness and step into this heart space with us. Remember, we are waiting in the heart with you, and we are waiting for you to choose to take up residency in the altar of the heart.
